Sheer Determination and the Version of Me I Now Treasure
I used to treat life like a full-speed sprint.
Spoiler: it was chaotic. Dramatic. Occasionally unhinged.
At first, I struggled to believe in myself.
But deep down, I knew one thing — never giving up felt like the only option.
So I kept going.
Through rejection, exhaustion, setbacks, plot twists, and moments that felt straight out of a movie.
Hello, I’m Vina — also known as VENUSY.
And this is the story of a chapter in my life fueled almost entirely by sheer determination.
Not always graceful.
Not always wise.
But absolutely unforgettable.
From chaos to entertainment.
South America. A full marathon with no marathon training. Life in the sky.
None of it was planned. All of it became part of the story.
A quick guide to the journey ahead
(So you know what kind of chaos you’re about to meet 😆)
Ku-tan’s Interruption
Wait… are we really doing the serious episode today? I came here to relax 🙈💗
Relax later. This episode has character development.
I feel like this is going to get chaotic 🙈💗
You already know 😏💖
From Chaos to Entertainment
Turning Life into a Story Worth Reading
Some people chase results.
Some people chase success.
I just kept going after meaning…
and somehow turned real life into a story people can’t stop reading.
This isn’t a success story.
It’s a process story.
Where chaos, curiosity, obsession, and growth
slowly turned into entertainment.
The South America Incident
(Yes, this actually happened.)
In early 2020, right as the world started shutting down, I flew to South America.
Because of course I did.
After I arrived in LA,
All flights cancelled.
All hotels cancelled.
Borders closing mid-trip.
Plans dissolving like mist.
At one point in Bolivia, I was taken into a private airport room by two police officers who strongly suggested I should “pay.”
At that moment, I thought:
“If this is a movie, I will be the main character.”
So I smiled.
Stayed calm.
Said a few magical words.
(Still not sure what they were. Possibly confidence. Possibly audacity. And possibly destiny.)
The officers looked at each other.
Paused.
And let me go.
I walked out like it was planned.
It absolutely was not.
I would’ve fainted 🙈💗
You would’ve become the emotional support mascot.
Fair 🙈💗
Eight Flights. Half a Night of Sleep. Zero Regrets.
Five days.
Eight flights.
Barely any sleep.
Two showers.
One existential glow-up.
When I finally reached Colombia, I raised a glass alone and thought:
“Being alive is… kind of incredible.”
Not bad for what started as logistical chaos.
The Airline Chapter
The Joy of Achievement Is Real — But It’s Brief
When I passed the international airline selection,
of course I was happy. Truly happy.
But I also realized something important:
The joy of achievement is intense — and fleeting.
If someone believes,
“Once I succeed, I’ll finally be happy,”
they often discover a new struggle waiting on the other side.
If you suffer before success,
you may suffer again after success —
unless you learn to enjoy the process itself.
The real transformation wasn’t getting the job.
It was learning to value the journey more than the trophy.
So winning isn’t the ending, Ku? 🙈💗
Exactly. It’s just another chapter..
The Wine Expert Arc
From Last Place
to Sensory Awakening
When I started studying wine,
I was near the bottom of the class.
Still, while working full-time,
I poured every free moment into wine.
- Reading
- Tasting
- Memorizing
- Immersing
I passed the written exam easily.
But I failed the tasting.
Not because of intelligence —
but because I hadn’t trained my senses enough.
The next year, I almost gave up.
Then life intervened.
Skydiving over a beach in Cairns.
Friends saying, “Why not try again?”
Something inside me switched on.
For about 10 days, while still working,
I dove into wine with near-obsessive focus.
Late nights.
Deep tasting.
Sensory training.
And suddenly—
My perception clicked.
Flavors made sense.
Structure became intuitive.
Tasting became natural.
That year, I passed.
Not through talent —
but through immersion, curiosity, and surrender to the process.
The Marathon Episode
The Marathon I Ran on Pure Delusion
Zero Training. Full-Time Work. Maximum Chaos.
At the time, I was working full-time —
early shifts, late shifts, everything in between.
On my days off, I tried to study.
Training for a marathon?
Not even close.
Then suddenly—
“Wait… the race is in TWO DAYS??”
Panic mode activated.
I rushed to Amazon and ordered a full marathon starter kit:
shoes, wear, gear — everything from head to toe.
I even bought a Garmin watch.
It arrived just in time.
On race day, I had no idea how to use it.
My family and friends said:
“This is reckless. Don’t do it.”
Fair warning. Ignored.
At the pre-race registration, they tested my flexibility and said:
“Honestly… even a half marathon might be difficult.”
Motivational. Love that.
That night, I whispered to myself like a spell:
I can do it.
I can do it.
Yes! I CAN DO IT.
Race Day: Blue Skies,
Cheers, and 120% Willpower
The sky was bright.
People were cheering.
My pride was louder than my common sense.
I ran on adrenaline, stubbornness, and pure vibes.
And somehow—
I finished the full marathon.
Was it graceful? No.
Was it heroic? Maybe.
Was it unhinged? Absolutely.
Aftermath:
The Zombie Era
The moment it ended, reality hit.
I was shaking so badly that I had to call my mom
and walk home step by step while screaming in pain.
From the next day:
- Taping everywhere
- Limping in a business suit
- Holding onto walls like a movie zombie
- Pain lasting three months
Eventually going for X-rays like,
“Maybe I should confirm I’m still intact.”
That’s when I truly learned:
Treating your body with love matters.
(whispering):That’s not a training plan, that’s a life experiment, Ku… 🙈💗
Correct.
Willpower can move mountains —
but recovery might take three months.
The Global Chaos Saga
When Life Feels
Like a Movie
South America.
Germany.
New York.
Hong Kong.
Police incidents.
Near-miracles.
Perfect-timed escapes.
Unbelievable coincidences.
At some point, I realized:
My life isn’t just happening —
it’s unfolding like a cinematic universe.
Drama.
Comedy.
Survival arcs.
Spiritual arcs.
Plot twists.
Not planned.
Just lived.
The Real Evolution
From “Effort Mode”
to “Flow Mode”
I used to believe in:
- Endurance
- Hustle
- Forcing outcomes
- Winning through pressure
Now I believe in:
I didn’t lose ambition.
I upgraded how I move through life.
Ku-tan’s Final Summary
Your life is chaotic, unrealistic,
but strangely addictive, Ku… 🙈💗”
That’s the balance:
The Truth
I didn’t turn chaos into success.
I turned chaos into a story worth reading.
And maybe that’s the real win:
Not living perfectly —
but living memorably, honestly, and joyfully.
When Life Felt Like Swimming Against the Current
Back then, I tried to force things into place.
If something didn’t work, my solution was simple:
Push harder. Try more. Endure longer. Repeat.
Looking back, it felt like arguing with the universe.
But every struggle — every detour — ended up becoming part of the plot.
So if you’re reading this, feel free to enjoy it like entertainment.
Because honestly… it kind of is.
About the Name VENUSY.
The name VENUSY. carries the energy of light, warmth, radiance, and joy.
A presence that feels bright yet gentle — playful, soft, and quietly magnetic.
Some people say I don’t feel like a “typical” Japanese person.
Others insist I have Italian or Mexican energy.
On the outside, I may look like an adult.
But inside?
I’m still a curious, adventure-loving child — constantly exploring, dreaming, and collecting stories.
So basically… mature packaging, chaotic inner child 🙈💗
Premium chaos.
A Life Powered by Impulse and Courage
If I want to do something,
I rarely overthink it.
It’s more like:
“This feels exciting. Let’s go.”
That mindset led me into experiences that sound fictional but… unfortunately for my nervous system… were real.
What This Chapter Taught Me
For years, I believed that pushing harder meant living better.
But here’s what I eventually realized:
Every challenge I survived became a gift.
Every painful moment became a story.
And every setback became a setup.
My Definition of “Cool” Has Changed
I used to think quitting meant losing.
Now I believe real strength looks like this:
Both the intense, relentless version of me
and the softer, freer version of me
deserve respect.
If Life Is a Story…
Then I choose one filled with laughter, courage, curiosity, and color.
I don’t chase perfection.
I chase aliveness.
And if my past looks dramatic — good.
It means I lived it fully.
A Message for You
Your past is not wasted.
Your detours are not failures.
And your chaos might just become your favorite chapter.
Trust your journey.
It was never pointless.
And if life gets strange —
treat it like a movie scene.
You might as well be the main character.
Have a beautiful day ✧
Thank you & LOVE ALL 💝
VENUSY.
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